Welcome to my yapping session, I like to go on about random things here,I don't feel like putting into my journal page .This website is really for stuff I like to talk about and I don't have anyone to talk about it with so I made this site blah blah. Hope you enjoyed it so far!
"Fitting In"
I have never tried to "fit in" and have never understood why people feel the need to do it. You are then literally just letting others thoughts and opinions control who you are for others meaningless approval. Like yes sometimes being lonely sucks, but at the same time I'd rather have zero friends then be surrounded by people who don't know the real me or don't like me for me. I don't understand this desire to fit in or this desire to be popular? But, if you don't "fit in" people don't like you or what you are doing they try to isolate you as a punishment for not being like them. It just seems childish and I really hoped people would stop doing it if they are older, but it seems to be worse when they are older. I understood I was "weird" and "different" right when I started elementary school and I just accepted that was me. Always an outsider and no desire to fit in or be accepted by my peers. I've always had issues with making and keeping friends, but we all weren't put here to be social butterflies and I'd rather not be one. Now I'm not saying I'm completely friendless I have some, but these are people who like me for me and not someone I pretend to be. Now I understand some people are just born to naturally fit in. But as I said before you should never change yourself to fit in or follow someone to fit into society norms. You should find people who like you for yourself.
People Who Cheat
I wrote this over a year ago, but one thing I hate is people who cheat on their significant other. Like if you love someone how can you do that to them. Just break up with them, or something. But what I hate most of all is the ones who don't even feel bad for it and kinda brah about it. It's actually pretty disgusting to me honestly. The ones who feel bad about it at least it's pretty forgivable. Not 100% forgivable but the ones who brah about it fuck you. Just like leading someone on, just leave them alone and let them find someone who truly loves them and wants them, don't waste their time.
Random 1
I've really been taking an interest in psychology lately tbh. It's becoming really helpful especially since, you can read others. You know their next move before anyone else. You start understanding the world better. You understand why people do things. The understanding of others can be helpful in understanding why some people do certain things, or why one may act out in a certain way. I've been studying this for years and it still fascinates me. I also love being able to understand others and not judge them for doing something and having an understanding on "why they did it" . Increasing one’s understanding of the human mind and how it operates is quite possibly one of the most useful things anyone can learn. It's also crazy to me what the human brain can do or how certain aspects that happen in life, can really mess up the brain chemistry. Such as, what happens in someone's childhood can play a huge role on how they grow up, or what kind of person they turn out to be.
Crushes
Crushes, I never really handled these well. Usually I don't get crushes but when I do it's not really fun to me. When my crush messages me my heart starts pounding,legs feel a bit rubbery and my stomach does this weird flipping thing. Can't stop thinking about him and wanting to find excuses to talk to him. Honestly, it's kinda debilitating. It completely puts me out of commission and makes it very difficult to function. When I have a major crush I feel like most of my brain is dedicated to thinking about it and there's nothing I can do about to change it. But I wasn't made for the ho life. Ngl I think that I was made for loving one person with my entire soul but I haven't found them till now. (It's my crush I have right now). I guess they call it a crush for a reason, but when I like someone I really like them. I can't shake it off I'll end up liking them for who knows how long. I sound so pitiful again ah I should stop.